Lesson #5 “Assessing risk: your relationships, work and health”

This week’s lesson on assessing risks was a good one. I spent considerable time on my answers and feel I’ve probably got more out of this lesson then any of the others so far. While I’m not going to go into details here I’m happy to say I have successfully dealt with one of my body image issues that have troubled me. One down and four to go! A step in the right direction.

Chugging along

No change in my weight to report this week but, after today’s bike ride I do notice a big difference when riding my bike. I now make it up most hills with no problem I just need to tackle the big one on the way back from the beach. By the end of the summer???? It a goal!

Lesson #4 “Responsibilities of a slave-in-training”

Wow! Communication – not my strong point! Good maybe this lesson will help me with my communication skills. Probably the reason my past relationships have failed so this is a good drill. Looking over and reflecting on my answers I find myself asking if I’m some kind of pervert or normal? I’ve come to realize I have at times communicated where I was in my head in the past but, maybe just needed a push to make that reality. I always feel like I don’t fit in, not even on the island of misfit toys. How do I find the niche where I fit?

Feeling Good

I’m really starting to notice how much better I feel. I have more energy and can even walk up a couple of flights of stairs without huffing and puffing as much. My weight is now about 281 or 281.5 according to my scale at home but, the big test will be this week when my trainer does all my measurements again, it will be good to see what progress I’ve made in body fat vs muscle percentages.

I’m off for a long bike ride today, not only for the exercise but, the enjoyment of being outdoors in the fresh air by the beach. With the hot weather here I’m sure there will be a fair amount of bikini clad ladies out.

I’ve found a great raw vegan place that makes a pretty good green blend with spinach, kale and a bunch of other ingredients that are all healthy but they add a little banana and apple so this actually tastes good. http://www.gorawlifecenter.com I had the vegan fajitas yesterday for lunch and they were pretty good. I’ll definitely get them again.

Masturbation

After a discussion with Mistress Mia about my masturbation habits and schedule she has come to the conclusion that I masturbate too much. I’ve been instructed to reduce my masturbation to once a day and only after 7 p.m. She instructed me to put the reminder note on my laptop and to work hard to reduce how many times a day I masturbate.

I’m still a little shell-shocked by this and I’m not sure how I feel. Deep down I know she is probably right I do spend too much time looking at porn and masturbating, I just wish I was giving it up because I was in head over heals in love with someone.

Lesson #3 “Assessing strengths and weaknesses”

This lesson leaves me with a task of choosing one item I’d like to learn to do or improve on and start to do it. I was assigned to learn how to give a back massage two weeks ago. I found a link on-line, studied and was allowed to give Miss Mia a shoulder/back rub last Friday. I’m sure I need more practice but, held my own for a first time. Maybe I can find someone in San Diego to practice on……..we’ll see…..

The next item I want to do is whiten my teeth. I don’t smoke but, do drink coffee and my teeth are pretty yellow. I’m going to research what is the best at home whiting system and head out to get one tonight. there’s no reason I can’t be whiting my teeth while I’m looking at porn and masturbating, right? I just need to get it done…..off to the drug store or Target.

Post for Sunday 6/23

I need to post my fitness stats every Sunday so this is late.

Weight is 285.5 Lbs and I have located two vendors close to my house that sell fresh wheatgrass in the 1oz, 2oz and 3oz sizes along with a healthy selection of raw fruit and vegetable juices. I’ve been working to eat more raw foods and have started with raw almonds vs the roasted/salted ones I love. I was able to pick up a bag yesterday at Trader Joe’s and they are packaged in smaller single serving bags so I can take them with me for a health snack. I just need to get use to the difference in taste. I’m working in two to three meals a week as vegan or vegetarian focusing on raw items. So next week I’ll report what days/meals where vegan/vegetarian and what I ate for those meals. Tomorrow I’m back with my trainer at the gym.

Task: Learn to give a good back massage

I’ve found a great YouTube clip on giving a back massage. Here is a link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zEfAjOaT4Q Even I can do this and with some practice I think I could get pretty good at it. Time will tell. I plan to pick up a soft brush today at a drug store and I know the Pleasure Chest carries some good massage oils. I’ve always been fond of Kamasutra Sweet Almond but, I’ll see if Miss Mia has a preference. I’ve watched the clip twice and on the second view took my time and reviewed the important areas more than once and made notes. I will watch it one more time before I leave today. Wish me luck as I hope to impress Mistress or at least I hope to not come off as a bull in a china shop.

Stats update

Update – Tough week with the travel schedule, weight is down to 286.5lbs. I was able to eat healthy for the first part of my trip and got two workouts in. I’m glad to be back home so I can get back into the routine.

Lesson #2 “What kind of slave am I?”

This was a harder lesson for me than one might think. Mistress Mia (http://missmiafallon.com/) reviewed this with me in a real-time session and I reread the chapter and retook the quiz again on my own with the same results. I seem to fit into the category of sex slave/household management slave. Out of the ten questions I had zero “A” answers but I’ve always had the desire to be more intimate with my past GF’s, or at least I thought I did.

I’ve recorded my answers to the quiz with a few notes in my note-book journal. I plan to take this quiz again in 90 days to see if I still give the same answers. It’s been a tough week with family and traveling. I’m extremely tired and have not masturbated in over a week. I’ve lost focus of my healthy eating and workouts. I hope a session with Mistress Mia will clear the cobwebs and help me refocus.